What is severe deconditioning, you ask?
I’d never heard the term, until the day I was sitting in my doctor’s office a year ago and she diagnosed me with “severe deconditioning.” Who knew this could be a medical condition!
I no longer remember the reason I’d gone to see my doctor. But I’m sure it had something to do with my normal, everyday symptoms:
- Out of shape
- Short of breath
- Aches in legs, back and feet
- High blood pressure
Some of this is the result of my sleep apnea (I do use a cpap), but most of it is caused by my sedentary lifestyle. I have no reason for being so sedentary, other than habit. Before becoming a stay-at-home mom, I was a computer programmer with a long commute. I worked long hours, frequently ate out, and had a long drive home. Not surprisingly, I gained between 15 – 25 lbs. every year.
After becoming a stay-at-home mom, I was a little more active for a few years and lost some weight. Then I took on website design and decided to become a writer. Every day I spend long hours in front of a computer. My sedentary lifestyle got cemented and I ended up where I am now–100 lbs. overweight.
It’s not as if I haven’t tried to lose weight before. Of course I have! And for every hard won loss, the weight rebounded DOUBLE. Yes. Double.
I tried Weight Watchers. I lost 20 lbs over 2 months, then gained them all back later. Doubled.
I tried exercise. I walked 4 miles every day. I lost 25 lbs. Then when the cold weather came I no longer took those walks. Over the span of the winter months I gained 50 lbs, weighing more than I ever had.
Then I gave up. My sleep apnea worsened and I gained another 15 lbs over the next year.
They say you sometimes have to hit rock bottom before you can pick yourself up.
That’s where I am now. Rock bottom. And I’m picking myself up, dusting off my sweat pants, and blowing the dust off my sneakers.
Today I’m taking my first step toward better health. I want to see my son grow up. I want to be around for my husband and future grandchildren. I want to be around to take care of my mom. And I want to feel better and have the physical fitness I need to do the things I want. I’m sick of taking the laundry upstairs and feeling out of breath and tired.
I’ve tried intense exercise and calorie counting, and both worked short term. Now I’m going to try something different. A slow lifestyle change.
Writing this blog is my first step. I hope you’ll join me on this journey!